Have You?

Have you ever sat next to someone – someone you love, someone you really care about, someone who you think of most of the times, someone who takes precedence in your life over all others, someone with whom you have shared your mind, body and soul; Have you? She has.

And have you spent moments of utter joy, laughter, naughtiness, spoken lines that maybe only two of you would understand??? Have you ever been hugged by that person who also told you that ‘I never want this to end?’ She has.

Have you been called one early morning by him from work and when you ask him (surprised that he called in between work!), “What are you doing?”, the most adorable and unforgettable reply that you could have ever heard is said – “I am missing you!”. Enough to sweep you off your feet and leave you in a dreamy daze! She has.

And have you ever received text messages where every message ignited passion like you have never known. A turn on yes that’s what every message has been – and you would never have thought that someone could be as passionate and mischievous in love. You see a whole new world and love it. She has.

And have you sat next to the same person – someone you love, someone you really care about, someone who you think of most of the times, someone who takes precedence in your life over all others, someone with whom you have shared your mind, body and soul; and realized that his loyalty is and has always been somewhere else. Have you felt all that you shared with him probably never meant enough to him ever? That he was always prepared to move on without you and you were too blinded by love to see that. She has.

So what, if today she sits next to the same person and feels like everything was maybe just a phase, maybe just a lie, maybe never meant to be, maybe just a fling… she is strong and knows that her honesty and loyalty and undying support will soon be his discomfort and soon her indifference will be his biggest defeat. She doesn’t want to hurt him or bruise his ego but after everything that’s been done; maybe he leaves her no other choice. She is not perfection nor does she claim to be. She reacts but she is above petty reactions, she is far too strong now to let him know that she hurts even now. She chooses to ignore or shy away rather than share her feelings with him now. She has given him one chance too many and overlooked a lot and she knows now that she has definitely had enough.