One evening in thoughts...

The sun had gone down. The sea was ablaze with orange and the noise torrential. It seemed that the gushing and lashing of the waves overpowered the bright orange flames that so conveniently engulfed the vast expanse below. A battle was ongoing – fierce, determined, dark, rage seething through…and I keenly observed. Those were but my first thoughts…

A few moments passed, and a stark irony dawned upon me. This was not an attempt by the two most powerful forces to show the other down, it was but the meeting that they so eagerly anticipated each day. This was a serene meeting of two lovers who could never be together, a rendezvous that millions of passers-by failed to notice, a secret wide open to all. There was a rhythm in every moment, a beat to which they made their every move. Mesmerized I sat on the rocks, spellbound by what I saw.

It was graceful, it defied all laws of nature… silence bowed down in respect... their union was eternal where eternity lasted for but a few moments…

So how was it that I could see all this today? It was because today I was alone – all alone and lonely. The ‘I’ had been lost long enough to be forgotten. Found today, it had brought nothing but an odd silence, a feeling of emptiness that was accentuated with every such realization of love...

Things I Want To Do Now.

• Take a walk on the beach during sunset and then sit there sipping on a drink and talk to someone close.
• Read a book lying down on a hammock when the cool breeze keeps blowing.
• Drive to a hilltop, play great music, and gaze at the view. Add a mild drizzle to make things perfect!
• Bungee Jump, River Raft, Paraglide, and the likes.
• Trek in the rains.
• Get my DVD Cam and go on a tour to the North - North East. Flexible, no time plans, no strings attached. Just me and the mountains.
• Go Dancing.
• Get a Spa Treatment.
• Go Flying!
• Go on a motorbike ride with someone special!
• Shoot a movie.
• Go and stay in a forest house. Explore.
• Go shopping for myself and everyone I want to gift!
• Cry my heart out and get over what hurts so much.

To be or not to be?

Sometimes no matter how well you think you have prepared yourself for the inevitable, it takes you by complete surprise or rather shock. Sometimes, the ugly reality of life hits you so bad, that you are stunned. It’s temporary because someone unknowingly changes the drift of everyone’s attention to something else giving you time to recover and get your act together before anyone realizes that Life just shook you terribly and laughed at your face – a dry, crackling, sarcastic, loud laughter. It’s also permanent for the memory of what just happened haunts you, hurts you and breaks you down.

Then you part ways and cry a little – sorry for the way things are, upset at your stupidities and trusting nature, embarrassed because of your unexpected reaction. But life goes on; there is no recovery time this time around. You have to live and live well for you are not someone who gives up easily. You are a fighter, a survivor, someone who is super sensitive and will cry at the smallest and insignificant things but not someone who will feel sorry for oneself and break down.

You are no Ice Princess but would rather be one today.