The Day When ...

• The day when someone who was the center of my life said goodbye, forever.
• The day when I finally for the first time took that someone's name in front of some really close friends.
• The day when someone for the very first time called me a name in frustration. Apologized, but the scar's never going away.
• The day when I couldn't see all the good I chose to believe for many years in someone anymore.
• The day when my dream shattered, my tears refused to stop, when I could feel a physical pain in me because my heart broke.
• The day when I actually felt a hollowness inside of me that refuses to go away.
• The day when I was petty enough to calculate all that I did for someone and how pointless it was.
• The day when I realized harshly that you cannot make someone a priority in your life when you can be an option in theirs.
• The day when I realized that I, an inherently impatient person, had been patient for 7 long tumultuous years and that it's ridiculous, I don't want to be patient ever again.
• The day when I lost all respect for someone.
• The day when I questioned being supportive, being understanding & regrettably so, I questioned loving unconditionally.
• The day when several plans made for the near and distant future lost all meaning.

Today, May 20th 2011, is the day when life as I knew it changed forever. Someone in my life died today.

Not died literally but died as much as a person could without physically dying ... as it is in reality.

Someone died and left me all alone wondering whether anything that was ever said was genuine, whether 'promises' mean anything at all, whether loyalty & trust are just hollow words, whether happy endings are just fiction, whether such absolute compatibility and love mean nothing and whether persistence & passion are pointless whereas giving up, taking the easier way out & being selfish is how one should be?

I am not bragging but I have never met anyone as positive as I have been in life till now no matter what the circumstances. Someone who believed that trust, loyalty, love, passion, perseverance, promises aren't just words but values to live by. Today, for the first time in 28 years, I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Sanctum

To be truthful, after Avatar I wasn't really expecting much from James Camaron's Sanctum. Avatar greatly disappointed me but for the effects which after a point became monotonous. Sanctum's promo seemed promising in terms of a concept and the thrill it could provide.

The first few moments of the film didn't really get me all excited but one look at the cave and I was in a state of shock! The place the entry is beautifully captured! What further piqued my interest throughout the movie was the way the locations were shot and the lighting. While the movie didn't quite have the pace that I would expect such an adventure film to have, it did showcase the pace of what could be a real underwater adventure.

The movie scores high in showcasing the adventurous human spirit and the thrills it seeks, the passion of someone to do something they really want to, the madness that makes us who we are and sometimes even tips us over the edge. For all of this and the stunning visual appeal, the movie is a must see. On the flipside, I don't think the movie should have been in 3D at least for Indian audiences given the shoddy quality of glasses available at the cinemas. Also, if at all the movie should have been 2D only or made to IMAX format for the experience that it could provide to the viewer. Except for the scene when the group takes their dive to escape the gushing water from the store and the last scene where Josh is swimming up looking for his final exit, no other scene creates the 3D impact that it should have as such a movie. The background score could have been a lot more exciting and could have created a higher impact and failed to deliver in most cases leaving me dissatisfied during scenes.

On an overall score, I'd give the movie a 6.5 on 10 purely for the visual appeal and no more. It's not a movie that left me spellbound or made me even discuss it much after it was over unlike several others.

That's all for now. More next weekend with Yeh Saali Zindagi and more!

Back!!!

So after a hiatus of 2 years and 8 months, I am back. and this time with a commitment to myself of being around more often and writing more often and not letting go of this blog no matter what! From random musings to thoughts that take most of my time, to movies I had loved and hated to the times I have spent! Its time to put it all down... its time to look back at this journal and relive some of the best memories that I will have made as this life goes by!

Heres to a verbose yet entertaining and happy compilation of my life as I know it!!

Cheers!